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Explorations in D/s

Well, as you know by now if you’ve been keeping up with me here, or on Fetlife, or even some of you on Facebook, I’m in a relationship with someone…not so new anymore! Though it’s hard to believe it’s been less than 5 months! He’s totally into spanking and butts and everything butt, if you get my drift. It’s fantastic. However, he’s not super domly dom. That’s ok though, because I don’t need/want/like to be micromanaged. I don’t want rules and to have them documented as I break them. Are there things I want to be spanked for in a more serious way? Sure. The spanking I got this past Monday for being kind of crabby and rude when D went out of his way to meet me for drinks, is an example. My mood was off, I wasn’t being nice, and on our pit stop home, he told me to take my leggings down and then promptly pulled me across his lap. It sucked because my butt was cold! Cold butt spankings are the worst! It wasn’t long and it wasn’t brutal but it got the point across and did wonders for my mood (and warmed me up, ha!). I like scenes like that.

Anyway, most of our spanking interactions are mock-serious and/or sexy. One of my favorites, that I hadn’t experienced until now? Being spanked for touching myself.

Yep.

Masturbating.

It started out more playfully. The first time was super hot because it was unexpected. I pranced off to our room in the cabin we were staying in, to use my hitachi. He knew what I was doing but a few minutes into it he barged in, shocked, and startled me! I thought he was really mad. I quickly knew he wasn’t for serious mad, and then it was hot. He sat down and said something along the lines of now I had to finish with him watching. Then he spanked me, rather hard. Then he told me what naughty girls who touch themselves without permission get.

Can you guess?

Really?

Maybe?

Ok, they get their bottoms errrr filled. Usually with a glass Crystal Delights plug, but sometimes other things! I’m not going into tons of details but there was that! And then some other fun. But holy jesus it was hot.

So it became A Thing. And now it’s Totally A Thing All The Time. At first it was only that I had to ask permission to come if he was there. Then while he was out of town for Christmas, it was always. Since he was so far away, it made us feel a little more connected. Now, I have to ask for permission always! And last night I didn’t. I slipped on a thong (his second favorite kind of panties) and stuck my butt in the air a lot until he gave me some attention. It happened so fast I didn’t have time to ask. Oops! This glass toy I have though…it just…it’s hard to remember to ask.

I did show him how very sorry I was, though. I am, after all, a good girl. Most of the time!

Recently I got a far more fun punishment. Being “punished” for sexual things is just so damn hot. I’ll leave that one to your imagination.

– M

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2013…Looking back Sept – Dec

September 2013: Ahhh September.

August 30 – Sept 2nd: I began Labor Day Weekend off at FetFest. I’d post photos, but uh, it was illegal to take any so….I don’t have any. Ahem. JT and I went and got to pitch the super awesome yellow tent he bought for the occassion. There was so much naked. You have no idea. SO. MUCH. NAKED! We were naked pretty much from the start. It was so hot out, that was our only option. After tenting the first night on a path leading to the woods, we moved our tent so as to avoid more spider fueled panic attacks from me. I am severely agoraphobic. Then we tented near Powder & GlitterBunny, two of my favorite people. It was four days of…to be honest, anxiety and stress. JT and I weren’t communicating properly which lead to a lot of hurt feelings and The Period of Not Good Times. A lot of fun was had though. I massaged with another cool massage therapist and made some money. I experienced amazing inclusion and woke up to the sounds of people having sex and orgasms…pretty much 24/7.  It was an awesome experience.

Sept 8th – The week after I got back from FetFest was spent preparing for school, falling into a new, lighter work schedule, and involved me sending a message to someone I’d been lightly corresponding with on FetLife. Honestly, he’d sent me maybe 3-4 messages prior to this, about various things and our interactions were…minimal and kind of insignificant. Conversational. So I knew he was out of the city for the summer and messaged him asking if he was back and if so, would he like to get coffee. He said sure. Conveniently, was on his way to the airport right near my own apartment so I was on the way. He met me at my favorite coffee place and if I hadn’t had to go to work, I imagine it would have lasted a lot longer than it did. But neither of us thought anything of it really. I texted him later that I enjoyed meeting him and I’d love to talk and play sometime in the future.

Sept 22nd – With company for a week, there was a lot of texting, but not much else. A short film I was in made it to the Coney Island Film festival and I invited him to come with me. We had a lot of fun. We arrived early and grabbed a drink and a snack. My time slot was actually the “Adult” slot, even though there was only a very tame sex scene (not with me – stock footage!). Afterwards we went to the candy store and looked around. I bought some. Then we walked along the boardwalk for a while. Eventually he had to leave for a meeting and I went to the awards show.

Sept 28th – We made brunch plans for a Sunday and that morning, while texting, I said “Can we do 1?” I had a pie to bake! Strawberry peach, to be exact. Our brunch was delicious and we then walked through the Union Square Farmers Market. It was a beautiful day. So so so beautiful. Then, as we walked, I said “So, I baked a pie this morning. You wanna come over and have some?” We were near a hard cider stand and he said “Why don’t I get a bottle of this, to go with the pie?” Woot! See, seducing a man with pie is the best way 😉 At my house, we had pie with ice cream and watched A Dangerous Method. The cider was a nice touch. While we watched the movie, on my couch, we drifted closer together. Then he held my hand. *swoon* I felt like I was in HS. Later, I walked him to the bus and we parted with a hug. When I got home, I sent the following text: “So that was kind of like a date, right?” And his response came and had me dancing around my livingroom “Definitely.”

This whole thing took us both by surprise. He was not looking for a relationship at all, and I had recently stopped actively dating, instead deciding to let what would happen, happen. And it did. Our first really *intentional* date was on October 3rd. There were tacos and margaritas, and two more stops in the neighborhood for beer. It lasted hours and we closed down a local beer place. He walked me home, both of us a little buzzed, and kissed me. I floated for the next 24 hours.

October was even more of a whirlwind, and by November he was coming to my moms wedding with me. He spent Thanksgiving with my family and my brothers extended family. By the time it was time for him to return home to his own family for Christmas for a few weeks, we were solidly attached. It was a difficult 3 weeks for us both by his home coming on New Years Eve was worth the separation. We couldn’t stop touching each other – even just holding hands – but mostly the spanking…and other things 😉

And thus, I rung in the New Year with this amazing man who I love so much, and some good friends.

I know it’s late but I only hope your New Years was as awesome as mine was!

– Marie

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Tis The Season

It is officially 3 days until Christmas. Well, I’m writing this and it’s still Sunday so it’s 3 days! By the time it’s posted and anyone reads it, it’l be Monday probably.

It’s been a week and a half since Understated left for home for Christmas and I miss him terribly. I know he’ll be back, but still! I’m already looking forward to next year, when I can wake up next to him and we can open presents together in person vs. over skype – which is our current plan. I haven’t been spanked since at least a day or two before he left and I really got used to being spanked regularly!!

I’ve been spending a lot of time with my family though. Two days after he left I visited my grandparents in NJ to hang out with my adorable little cousin for a while. It was a nice reprieve but I had to come home because I had to work. Now I am back for the week for Christmas. I’ll be going to my moms on Christmas Eve and then come back to the city probably the 27th. I wish I could travel at will but I am sadly at the whims of other people as rides and public transportation. Otherwise I’d come home the day after Christmas and enjoy my naked solitude!

Then I’m having a little spanking get together with my closest friends – basically I want all my favorite people around to spank me, and some girl-y friends to share cake and shenanigans with. It makes me sad that D can’t be here, but with both of my roommates out of town, I rarely get a chance so will go ahead with party planning. We have a lot of fun planned once he’s back.

I also reached out this weekend, to someone I had never spent a lot of time with before. Someone I’d seen at parties in passing and who has always always been kind to me – especially on Fetlife. We met up while she is in town and galavanted around my neighborhood and did ALL the talking. I’m so glad I reached out and got to know her. I so easily judge by what I see, that I need to remember to take a step back, and interact with people, and give them a chance. I won’t ignore my senses which have thus far ALWAYS been correct, but I really want to make more of an effort to make friends.

I’ve been reflecting a lot on the last year. A lot has happened. It feels like far longer than a year! I’m planning a bigger post with a reflection on the year that I will post sometime between Christmas and New Years. Also, I maybe will write about the SSNY Christmas Party, too.

For now, I leave you with my adorable new stripey socks. Rainbow socks are D’s favorite so I ordered a few pair 😉 I cannot wait for him to come home and do ALL the naughty things to me while I wear them. And only them!

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And one more for good measure. Merry Christmas!

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A Return?

This past weekend was the annual Shadow Lane spanking party in Las Vegas. It’s been exactly five years since I was able to attend, so going was a rather big deal for me. In the time since I announced my departure from blogging I have come to thrive in the twitter and Fetlife communities online, and the local NYC BDSM communities. I’ve been in relationships, graduated from college, and moved four times. Life has been hectic, and crazy and more often than not, quite confusing. At the same time, however, it’s been kind of awesome.

Since I got back from Vegas last night, I’ve been thinking a lot about the influx of blog posts that would be coming in. I suddenly missed being a part of this community. I had a great talk with a newer spanking model this weekend and it affirmed why I left that part of the community. I know it wasn’t right for me – but it’s hard to deny that I miss the attention. The fact is, I’ve changed a lot in the last five years since I began in the scene. It’s not a surprise, I certainly knew I would change as a person, but I never could have imagine how I would change.

I think I may get back into blogging – if not to explain to all of you how I’ve changed, then to myself, perhaps. For now, I am going to sleep and try to fight off the drop from Shadow Lane (and my post Shadow Lane activities).

– Marie

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Advent Blog Day 6: Dexter

Do any of you guys watch the show Dexter? I recently started it, and am just about to watch Season 3 episode 1. I had a nice discovery in season 2. I won’t give away anything huge, but it was the hottest mainstream spanking moment I’ve ever seen. Go ahead, watch it. Episode 8. But I highly recommend the preceding season and 7 episodes!

Sorry I don’t have more, I’ve had a migraine for a few days and am kind of out of it.

– Marie

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Advent Blog Day 5: Spanking Thanksgiving

Last week I spent Thanksgiving with a very dear spanking friend. Well, most of it anyway. He was one of my favorite spanking authors for years and we’ve been pretty close the last several. This was my first time meeting him though. I drove down to where he lives and stayed with him. While he had a lot of work to do, we had fun. He spanked me the first day, and I made him a sammich! Go me!

I also spent some time with my friend and his family. That was also pretty awesome. We went out a few nights, stayed in, and it was all great. Then on Thanksgiving, I cooked for my friend, C, and I. A turkey, mashed potatoes, broccoli salad, and deviled eggs. And biscuits. And cookies. And a pumpkin pie! It was all delicious and there was much picture taking (they’re on Facebook for my vanilla-spanko) cross over friends. And there was spanking. I took a pretty hard belt spanking from C one night, it was perfect. Not too much. And it was over my jammie pants. I LOVE bedtime spankings over my jammie pants!!

After we ate and lounged around lazy for a while, I went and had a SECOND thanksgiving with my friends family. Cooked some more, played with a hyperactive 7 year old, and had her help me bake cookies. All in all, a good thanksgiving. I actually did miss my mom and family this year for the first time ever, so I’m hoping Christmas is a good one.

– Marie

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Advent Blog Day 4: Party Time!

Really, I went to two parties last night. The first was the annual SSNY holiday party. It was a great party with a great crowd – a really awesome turn out. There were a lot of new faces, and a lot of out of town guests which is always nice to see. I brought my chocolate cake and the pumpkin pie and both seemed to go over well. I played once with an old friend, and it was nice. I played last week during a Thanksgiving trip visiting a spanko friend (I’ll write more about that tomorrow for Day 5!) but before that my last spanking was in late October. It was a nice spanking. Just what I needed. And not more than I can take. Although, it did leave me wanting a bit more of his belt. Perhaps a play date in the near future.

After the SSNY party, I headed downtown for a friends birthday. It was at this great bar near Wall Street on a street you can’t drive down because it’s narrow and cobblestoned. Truly fantastic, makes me wish I got to see NYC back in the days when all streets were cobblestone! Much alcohol was consumed – hard cider and shots and it was really awesome to see one of my best friends from massage school. It was her boyfriend whose birthday we were celebrating. I didn’t get home until nearly 4am so it’s a good thing I blogged Day 3 before the fun started last night! I slept in, was lazy and went and had a massage from a friend earlier today. It was fantastic. We trade, and I’ll get her back tomorrow.

Anyway, I don’t have a ton more to say – except that my roommate is a little crazy. He’s a good guy though so it’s not really bad crazy. Just a bit…OCD.

– Marie

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Advent Blog Day 3: Laundry!

I am blogging from the car! I didn’t want to miss a day of course, so I frantically installed the WordPress app on my phone so I could tell you all about my day. My first official Saturday not working since I quit one of my jobs – where I worked on Saturdays. I played more Glitch and then finally got together my laundry. I’ve needed to do laundry for over a week but I only washed what I needed for the next few days. Ever do that? I like doing laundry but it’s just harder when it’s not in my home. It’s only on the corner but well…it’s outside. But I did it! And I had cinnamon Cheerios for lunch.

Isn’t my blog so exciting?! I’m on the way to SSNY then out for a friends birthday so I’m sure once I rouse tomorrow I’ll have lots to tell you all!!

– Marie

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Advent Blog Day 2: Spankings?

Day 2…hrm. It’s just after 10 so I’m glad I remembered to blog! I had a really lazy day. Too lazy. I played Glitch most of the day with odd bursts of cleaning. Then I went out to the bank and walked for a bit and bought baking supplies. Cooling in my kitchen currently is a pumpkin pie, a strawberry cake (it will have cream cheese icing) and a chocolate cake (will have chocolate icing). I am going to bring them to the annual SSNY holiday party which is tomorrow night here in NYC. It should be fun. I think this marks 3 years of parties. Which is pretty awesome. They bring in great crowds of people.

And there is spanking. But I am feeling odd towards spanking lately. Until a month ago, I had been dating someone for 7 months. It was the longest and most serious I’d gotten with anyone since Max – which was a long time ago. The breakup was (and still is a little) hard, but we’re managing to stay pretty close friends anyway. I tried dating a bit, but decided that I think I need to be single for a while. The relationship showed me just how important special the intimacy (both sex and spanking) truly is to me.

When I turned 18, I let anyone who wanted to, spank me. And I had fun. I made videos, I traveled, life was good. I still played with others when I was with Max but then after we broke up, I played almost exclusively with one or two people, or if I was seeing someone. That wasn’t bad for me, but over time I realized just how special spanking was to me. To share it with someone I cared about – loved even – and who cared about me, was the reason I wanted it. When I stopped having someone like that to do it with, it just wasn’t the same and I stopped wanting it in the same way.

And then recently, being with…..we’ll call him…um…W, made me truly truly see just how important it all was to me. I wouldn’t have classified myself as promiscuous but I was more open to exploration and casual sex a year ago. And by casual sex, I don’t mean random one night stands, I mean with someone I wasn’t in a committed relationship with. Now, it’s different. If I can’t have it all, I don’t want any of it. Or I want it very specifically.

So lately, instead of craving a spanking, I crave the whole thing. The dominance, submission, the ritual, the spanking itself, the before, the during, the after. It’s very difficult for me to just play with someone these days. It’s also hard for me to even play with people I love and trust as friends, mentors, etc.

A few weeks ago at the SSNY party I played and flirted with a very nice spanko guy who was here on business for the week. I enjoyed the spanking and playfulness, but clearly was more into him than he was to me. It’s made me really question playing casually. Because spanking has turned into so much more, and even the playful ones need to be with people I at least know and trust a bit.

I’m rather conflicted these days. Who knows when it’ll end/resolve/unconflict.

For now…I have a pumpkin pie to eat and two cakes to ice. And a beer to finish.

– Marie

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